i had a feeling this was going to happen, but i didn't expect it so soon. i don't really feel like there is anything i can do about it. i try to include myself, but i keep getting rejected. i hate the feeling of trying and failing. but thats just a part of life. i guess all i can do is wait. i don't understand what i did wrong. i tried to be there, but my attempts just went unnoticed. i guess i could have handled the situation a little bit better. i might have acted a bit selfish, but can you blame me ? seriously, it was hard. you may think that i don't notice those little things, but i do. i hate to say this, but they bother me. maybe you realize they do, maybe you don't. i don't know what to do anymore. it seems that whenever i make an effort you just ignore it. i think i will keep on trying. it will be worth it in the end.
