im so sorry . honestly . i feel so bad . i know you're annoyed and i don't blame you . i would be too . i can't help it though , not only do i want to but they make me . i wish he could have just kept his mouth shut from the start . everything would be so much easier if you had never found out . things could have been normal and not as awkward if he didn't go and ruin everything . i wish i could just start over . i can't tell if what you said was out of pity or the truth . from the way you act around me , it seems like you're embarrassed . i wish i had the guts to start the conversation , to be able to go up to you without getting scared . i don't want to push things . i just wish we were closer . i guess all i can do is wait. i don't even know what i'm waiting for though ..
@#$%^&*!@#$%^&*!@#$%^& ! you make me so mad ! im trying so fricken hard to make things right again , and let it go , but your such a retard ! do you ever learn ? seriously ! 'i really meant it when i said i never want to lose you as a friend' riiiiigggggghhht. thats completely believable. i apologize and all you do is push me away. if you haven't noticed , i don't care if you like her. i don't care if you hug her in front of me and i am definitely NOT jealous , so get over it ! your little act isn't fooling anyone. stop trying to guilt her into liking you. you're just going to hurt her again. after all , you're the one that told her you didn't like her anymore. don't underestimate her , she learned her lesson. she can see right through you now. i hate how you think you can get any girl you want. you act all innocent , when you're the complete opposite . you tell all these stories about your past relationships , saying how you are so committed because your longest relationship lasted one year. wow , big deal. oh , and why the heck would you rant on about how far you've went with a girl ? like it matters. i bet you made all that up. if you wouldn't mind , could you please stop . stop trying to act 'cool' or whatever the heck you're doing.
