'it doesn't matter how long we've been apart , all the matters is the time that we get to spend together'
today. can you say a m a z i n g ? the day started out with math. we got our tests back , and i got an A ! i was so surprised because i honestly thought i failed. im really trying to turn my grades around and actually try to succeed. joseph was being mean to me the whole class. he wrote lies all over my pencil case , and kept poking my books during reading break. gosh , thanks bestfriend. in home ec , we got to make spring rolls ! they were honestly the best ones i have ever tasted. the stupid thing was , i ate them ! AND IT'S FRIDAY. i feel so guilty. this is the second friday that i forgot , and ate meat. i promise not to eat it next friday , f'suuures this time. third block i had english. it was the worst class ever. she was in such a bad mood today. like seriously , she flipped at every little thing. she made us sit at our desks and do work .. without talking ! the class was so quiet , i had to leave. haha ! i just asked to go to the washroom and left for a while. when i came back , she left the class and everyone started talking. amanda lai stuck her little red ducky to my cheek. it was so cute. last block was french. it was pree fun. we wrote a little quiz , which i got two wrong on , and then we learned three irregular ir verbs. after school , danica came ! oh , and ming/alfonso came as well , haha. we walked to macs with danielle , delani , and karley. i got my usual cowtails and slurpie. bad idea though , it was so cold walking back ! on the way back , we saw you guys. thanks for waiting for us , and better yet , talking to us.. we thought you stopped to let us catch up , but noooo ): things like this really get me confused , i can never tell with you. you're impossible to figure out , i swear. even they notice it now , something just doesn't seem .. right ? anyways , we went back to the school for a little bit and talked. jeffrey came , and ruined our awkward moment ! it was so funny. after , danica and i walked back to my house so i could get changed. then we walked to the bus stop and went to the mall. when we got there , we met up with adrian and nathan. we pretty much just walked around , sat , and ate. it was a lot of fun though. it made me realize how much i miss you guys. frick , i wish things never changed. i know that things are done and over with , but i can't help but feel a little tension between us. its not something i particularly want. i wish we were okay , but i don't think that's ever going to happen. i guess all i can do is try. i had such a good time with nicaaaaaa r ! i miss you so much , hun. no joke , i wish you never ever had to leave. i hope we do keep in touch more often. i don't want us to go that long again without talking to each other. every few weeks , remember that k :) grr , i love you so much , silly ♥ it's amazing how we can go so long without talking to each other , yet i still know that i can talk to you about anything. i guess all those things we said and promises we made back in elementary school really were the real deal. best friends forever.
of course , as soon as i think that nothing can ruin my day , you come along and start talking to me. you're unbelievable. trying to blame everything on me again. i apologized for a reason. obviously i didn't do it because i didn't want to talk to you , retard. after everything we've been through , don't you think i deserve a little more respect than that. after seeing the way you treated me today , i know for sure what kind of a 'friend' you are. you sit directly beside me , and not say one word ? oh , and when you get confronted , the only thing you do is make up excuses. don't tell me that 'you can never tell with me'. to me , that just goes to show how little you care about me. im seriously sick and tired of trying. what's the point anyways ? you couldn't care less , so why should i be the one trying to make an effort. i want to say im through , but i know im not. i can't just sit back and watch things get all ugly again. im still here waiting , but not for long. go ahead and take advantage of the situation , but you'll soon realize all the mistakes you made , and hopefully be sorry for them. although it seems like it would take a miracle for you to change , im hoping you will. one day.
