a simple conversation with you is almost impossible. you're always with *them*. if you haven't noticed , i'm not a big fan. they may seem all nice and sweet when they're around you, but when it comes to me , they could care less. you promised me you didn't like them , retard. how can that be true when you spend all your time with them. i wish i could catch your attention like they seem to catch yours. i wish i could be as innocent as they are. i wish you would talk to me like you talk to them. yeah , it might sound a little cliche but its so hard. were all those things you said to me before just because you felt sorry for me ? well , there goes a whole bunch of waisted smiles. i actually got excited over all those little things. i guess its my fault for giving in too quickly. falling far too fast without knowing if you would be there to catch me. yenno the stupid thing about all of this is that i actually had the chance before , but i jumped to conclusions and passed up a great opportunity. i wish i could go back , knowing what i know now , and do things a lot differently. maybe i would actually be happy by now.
