you're confusing , you know that ? you've said about a million different things and i can't seem to figure out which may or may not be true. the most recent confession has really got me thinking. if its true .. ahh :$ enough said. if it's just another one of those things you say just because you feel sorry for me , then i guess you're just like everyone else. wouldn't surprise me though. i'm through with getting my hopes up over something silly even though i know exactly how things will turn out. i guess i'll just have to wait until monday to see how things are. i really hope you were being honest because you don't know how much you made me smileeeeee.
schools almost here. im really looking forward to monday but at the same time i don't want to go back and work. i'm so excited to see all you guys ! two weeks is a pretty long time. although it's been nice being able to sleep in until one and not have to worry about homework , i miss waking up and getting ready , knowing that i get to spend the day with my bestest friends ever ;) aside from seeing them , i am honestly not looking forward to seeing you. as bad as it might sound , i was actually happy that i didn't have to see you for three whole weeks. i have no idea what it's going to be like having you there again. im not going to be an instigator. i think the best thing to do is to just let it all go and not think about it. don't get me wrong , its going to be nearly impossible for me to forget about it , but i am willing to drop it and try not to cause anymore problems. yeah i understand that a lot of what has happened is my fault. i could have been the bigger person and not have went down to your level , but what you did was wrong. oh , and btw when i say that im going to drop it and try not to cause problems , i don't mean that things are going to go back to the way they used to be and we're going to start talking again. i just mean that im not going to go out of my way just to be mean to you .. haha . whatever , if she's happy with the person you are , then i guess i'll just suck it up.
