you really need to grow up , kiddo. holding grudges won't make you a better person. making up lies isn't going to make people like you more. i've tried to forget about the past so that maybe you would too , but after what happened today , i doubt that's ever going to happen. the minute you saw that i was there , your expression changed. i saw it. you looked directly at me and walked away. i could tell that you knew i found out about all those stories you told him. im not mad. honest. im not going to sink down to your level. i let it go. you should try that sometime. it's a lot easier than trying to hate someone for no reason. i don't even understand why you hate me. i didn't do anything. you're the one that hurt me. you even admitted it to me yourself. i don't get why we can't just move on and forget about it. i really don't want to be someone you used to know. in all honesty , i miss you. i miss all those late night and early morning conversations we used to have. sleeping at one in the morning because i didn't want to say goodbye and waking up at six so that we could talk again. i miss all the secrets you used to tell me. i miss going to your school just so you could give me one of your bear hugs. i miss fighting with you because i would rather have bad times with you than good times with someone else. i miss going to the mall with you and sitting the food court doing absolutely nothing but talk. i miss playing 'are you nervous' with you because you would always say you could last longer , even though we both know i always won. i miss running home everyday after school because i knew you would be online waiting for me. i miss our little nicknames and secret personal messages that we would make so that no one would know we liked each other , even though they were so obvious. i miss everything. i would give anything to go back to the way things used to be. seeing you today made me realize just how much you really meant to me.
